keep on when your mind says quit

I was starting this post in a very bad bood. Just, so angry I was literally sick with it.

Being in my family is just, so, I don't know. There's not a word for it. I just get so damn tired of dealing with them, the way I get treated by them, and the shit they throw at me. Daily. I just feeling like no matter what I do, I'm always seen as nothing. I can be stepped on, insulted, disregarded.

There's this quote from a show I love, that talks about family. I usually agree with it and take it to heart.

"...Are you under the impression that families are supposed to make you feel good? Make you an apple pie maybe? They're supposed to make you miserable! That's why they're family."

I've always agreed with it. Not with every family, but. It just fits with my family. The way they work. But to me, there should always be good - that comes with the bad. And equal amount to make it worth it. The utter crap you go though.

And lately, there has been hardly anything to make it worth it. They just make me miserable.

I don't know.
But, these were my thoughts going into this post and I felt so weighed down by it all.

Then, music countinued it's amazing ability to just utterly change moods, and make you feel better.

I still stand by what I said. But, this song came on my shuffle and the right time and made me feel better, and made me get out of my hole and I don't know, realize even if a lot of things in my life aren't working and I feel like crap and I'm so damn lost sometimes- things can get better, and to just keep moving.

"Shine On" by Eric Bibb

Life gives you the runaround you say
You wanna know
How much dues must you pay

Well, you can pay off what you want
When there's a will
There's always a way

Keeping your eyes on
That mountain top
Stepping up time
Don't ever, ever stop

Keep on when your mind says quit
Dream on 'til you find your living it
I'll be right by your side
Yeah baby keep on
Don't stop 'til you win your prize
Lean on all the love that is in my eyes
You're a diamond to me, yes you are
Shine on

I know what you've been through
I see
But it's time to leave it behind and let it be
Yeah

Hard-earned wisdom is something you can't buy
It's the wings of experience
That make you fly

Don't look back
Don't look back
Don't turn around
You're on the right track

Keep on when your mind says quit
Dream on 'til you find your living it
I'll be right by your side
Yeah baby keep on
Don't stop 'til you win your prize
Lean on all the love that is in my eyes
You're a diamond to me, yes you are
Shine on
Shine on
Keep on when your mind says quit
Dream on 'til you find your living it
I'll be right by your side
Yeah baby
Don't stop 'til you win your prize
Lean on all the love that's in my eyes
You're a diamond to me, yes you are
Shine on
Shine on
Baby you got to shine on
That's what you're born to do
Me and you
You got to shine on
Sparkle baby

Baby you got to
Shine on



It really is an amazing song.

:)